It's A Personal Problem

I think God is calling me to a radical life where I forsake the things the world has to offer anytime those things are shown to not build His Kingdom. I only want to possess that which I know can be used in service to Him. Of course, I want the same for my family so that my husband and children would want to serve Him with the same fervor, never (or rarely) taking from the world just for themselves.

I want to find joy in God by loving others so that souls will be won for the Kingdom and have the opportunity to witness God snatching His chosen children out of the hand of the enemy. I do know I am easily misunderstood in my pursuit of this radical life. I simply don't go about it all in the right way. My sincere goal is to be all about Him, not to be offensive. I think I still have a lot to learn about loving others -- in the way they ought to be loved, in the way they understand love. To love them enought not to push my life's ambition (all about Him) on them before God has prepared them to receive it.

That's why it's hard to be around me sometimes...because my never-satisfied-with-myself mindset gets outside of myself and applied to those around me. My desire for others to understand the 'all about Him' vision and lifestyle might even make my family and friends feel like I disapprove of them. Sadly, Im so 'good' at this, in fact, that I don't even have to try to pressure people - it's automatic. When I'm all excited about being 'all about Him' I might even look like I'm all about ME. Alas, I'm at God's mercy to save myself and everyone else from my own poor implementation of the life I feel He's calling me to lead.